20091029

ahhh this made my day. halloween outfit ideas. iv never been to a halloween party but boy if i get the oppurtunity im rockin out the floppy disk suit!!












20091015

facebook is good for some things

like this little quote i read in someone's status. it made my day.

"Never apologise for showing your feelings. When you do so, you apologise for the truth."

20091014

i have been overwhelmed the last couple of months.
with everything that i am NOT. that i am lacking. that i could've done better, said better, dealt with better.
this way. that way. your way. their way. His way.
but living in light of others is really tiring. all you can do is be the best at being you right?

and yes, people will reject that
and yes, it will hurt
but what hurts more, and this i have found, is rejecting yourself.
choosing to see yourself through their eyes.
constantly pointing out your faults, your failures.
insecurity, the cursed word

feeling guilty about who you are. its like going against the deepest part of yourself.

identity.

knowing who i am and being at peace with that.
being ok with my weaknesses and proud of my strengths.

i am desperately desiring to reach this place. and to find THE TRUTH. not opinion. not mine. not yours. HIS.
i want to live only in light of who God says I am and who God himself is.

i wonder if it gets any easier.


You looked into my life and never stopped
And you're thinking all my thoughts
Are so simple, but so beautiful
And you recite my words right back to me
Before I even speak
You let me know, I am understood - relient k

20091011

it rains underneath the trees

why is it that in the difficulty, in the grey of despair, i find myself at my most creative. a spring full of ideas and words and images. real and honest.

it is so bittersweet. i love this place, yet i hate this place. i want to escape it, but at the same time i want to explore it.

this is an interesting season.

20091002

she is falling in love with words



















iv kinda been workin on a story... kind of.
the book iv been wanting to write since i could read. but iv never really gotten further than the idea of writing a book. until now...

there is just too much that i need to say.

some sentences have been jotted down. paragraphs. some short. some lengthy..
*hats off to all the writers out there* this is not an easy task.
u write. u erase. u write. u erase. sigh.

i have been drawing this girl for ages now. i think she is the girl in my story.


the van























we had good times together.